softkillcipher

what is the purpose of this page? what is the mission?

quite simply, i just wanted to explore mathematics at my own pace, unrestricted by deadlines and exam requirements. i wanted to journal too and share my writing sometimes. the blog's aesthetic might be nostalgic for a few, and its contents is messy and a little vulnerable at times. my twenties are giving me the same angst i had as a teenager with the hindsight that it's not really that deep and it's not going to matter in a few years. i'm here to get it out, and write about maths and mental health, without taking life so seriously. when i write, it's just about my journey with the content itself. i don't think anybody is going to see this, but if they do i hope they feel seen right back for as long as they're here. everybody is welcome, but i have a particular soft spot for twenty-somethings of average intelligence and no clue about what to do with their lives. that population is not as niche as your brain will make you believe.

a bit about me, i did an undergrad in mathematics by accident. i just picked it randomly because i flunked my physics a-level and ended up in clearing, and i'm part of the generation that was told "just get a STEM degree" like it's a passport for a six-figure earning career. for the largest part of my degree i was barely passing my modules but not dropping out because i was already in too deep. it was only in my third year (majority elective modules) that i actually started going to lectures regularly and paying attention to this stuff. i guess i'm a late bloomer in that sense, i only started appreciating what i had when it was coming to an end. it's not all bad though, i'm doing a masters in mathematics so i have another year with the subject left. i want to revisit some things from the first and second year that i was too zoned out to appreciate.

interact with this blog however you want. if you're just here for mathematics notes, go ahead and ignore the sappy stuff. if you're only here for the writing or the self-care side of things then you're free to ignore the academic side. a lot of people haven't done maths since they were sixteen and would prefer to keep it that way, i get it. i'm a big believer in taking what resonates and leaving what doesn't, which is exactly how i hope people interact with my work.