softkillcipher

what is the purpose of this page? what is the mission?

quite simply, i just wanted to explore mathematics at my own pace, unrestricted by deadlines and exam requirements. i wanted to journal too and share my writing sometimes. the blog's aesthetic might be nostalgic for a few, and its contents is messy and a little vulnerable at times. my twenties are giving me the same angst i had as a teenager with the hindsight that it's not really that deep and it's not going to matter in a few years. i'm here to get it out, and write about maths and mental health, without taking life so seriously. when i write, it's just about my journey with the content itself. i don't think anybody is going to see this, but if they do i hope they feel seen right back for as long as they're here. everybody is welcome, but i have a particular soft spot for twenty-somethings of average intelligence and no clue about what to do with their lives. that population is not as niche as your brain will make you believe.

a bit about me, i did my undergrad in mathematics by accident. i just picked it randomly because i flunked my physics a-level and ended up in clearing, and i'm part of the generation that was told "just get a STEM degree" like it's a passport for a six-figure earning career. for the largest part of my degree i was barely passing my modules but not dropping out because i was already in too deep. it was only in my third year (majority elective modules) that i actually started going to lectures regularly and paying attention to this stuff. i guess i'm a late bloomer in that sense, i only started appreciating what i had when it was coming to an end. it's not all bad though, i'm doing a masters in mathematics so i have another year with the subject left.

interact with this blog however you want. i hope some of the notes are useful :p